I can't sleep

And I wish I had a reason
there i just lie
tossing and turning
waiting to get up
and write, scream
here i can tell you
that I don't want to sleep
I'm tired of dreaming
tired of thinking
tired of analyzing
I'm so sick of caring
so sick of missing
I wish there was
more reason to smile
I wish I could just
lay peaceful
is it the wind
does it howl my fears
of loneliness
of times wasted
on illusions to come
on lies once told
and likely told again
on promises broken
i lie there
waiting to fall asleep
waiting for someone
waiting to stop waiting